In Search of the Ultimate

I can vaguely recall my very first burger. I was somewhere around 4-5 years old and we, the family, went up to an A&W Restaurant in Petaling Jaya. I had a burger, I think it was beef.

My first crave for burger was inspired from Archie's comics. I thought whatever that was that Jughead fought so hard to get must be really good. Although initially what I asked my parents for was a hamburger. The response was similar when I asked for a roast boar (one of my life long ambition is to enjoy a fine roast boar the way Obelix did), "How about we give you something better?".

And I got an A&W beef burger.

And it was okay.

I knew it won't be as magical as how Jughead enjoyed his hamburgers. I mean, it was just food. And A&W beef burger was not really that extravagant. Not bad, just not that magical.

Ever since then, I question myself, "Is there such thing as a magical burger?"

Well, I didn't actually question myself that (I was 5 remember?). I just thought it could add some flavour to this entry - a pinch of sweet and sour melodramatic salt.

And by magical I didn't mean it to be like it could send me to the stars - well, except metaphorically - you know what I mean.

I always have enjoyed KFC's Zinger Burger and McDonald's Cheeseburger as fine selections among the fast food chains. Burger King's Whoppers, Carl's Jr's (can't remember what I had) or any kind of burgers at Chilli's or TGIF's are among the second tier of my taste buds. I'm quite inconsistent with street burgers. Some are far better than those you can find any mainstream food providers, and some are just plain belong to the longkang next to the burger stall. But none, among those burgers mentioned, had exactly fasten my seat belt in a rocketship, did the countdown and press the big red 'Launch' button to throttle me up among the galaxies.

If I have to pick my current number one, my vote goes to the A&W's Mozza Burger, just like the one I'm having right now.

What's Next?

I just turned 25.

I have a wish made around the same date last year. I postponed it for another priority. That priority has now passed and done.

Should that wish now climb up on the to-do list?

Perhaps, the wish never did fall from its original place. It has always been there on top of my head. It's not like I wished for a carrot and I can just go to a store and get it - well, buy it with money - and I have to know which store to go that has fresh looking and tasty carrots - and cheap too if possible because money is not unlimited - unless that carrot gives eternal happiness - as long it's within my spending ability.

It's just not like a carrot, to a certain extent.

It has been always on the side of life. It was there when I was on a queue to buy a cup of coffee. It was there when I was sitting in the park enjoying my sushi. It was there when I stopped by a cupcake store.

It's not exactly a wish, really.

Nor I shouldn't have brought it up as a wish. Just a momentary relapse of strong will, especially in time of retrospection - such as about this day.

I am now 25.

Compared to last year, I do think I have not changed that much, as a human being. I mean, I did improved on certain areas, I think, but along the way, as old bad habits eventually gone, I gained other new ones.

It's inevitable I suppose. The nature of our lives is that we continuously learning and fixing ourselves - unless you're a super perfect human being, regular maintenance is sufficient.

Hence, wishing to be a better person is pointless. It is an ongoing practice of us as human beings. Maybe it's okay for specific objectives, i.e. wishing to be a crime fighting super hero.

I'm not very sure where I'm going with this. Maybe I just wanted to exercise my thoughts to come up with a better life objective for this coming chapter of my life.

At the moment, I just wish to get a job.

If you know any architecture/building/construction R&D jobs available anywhere, let me know.

I Always Lie

A maniac promises to not kill the victim if anyone could correctly guess what she (yes, the maniac is a little girl) will do. What would the maniac do if a moron guessed that she will kill the poor innocent victim?

Mind blowing!

Oh, another one.

What would happen if Pinocchio says, "My nose will grow!"?

I do enjoy paradoxes because they teach us that it is possible to be in such complex positions where logical solution does not exist. Logical in this sense is that the solution justifies the premise, I think. I'm not very sure. You can google it yourself.

Well, I guess it is very unlikely that there can be an idiot interrupting a police investigation and tell the crazy little girl that she will kill the innocent little boy (wrong day to piss off the wrong little girl, dude).

In Pinocchio situation, however, the only way to justify the situation is to convict the premise, if that in fact is possible, or even the right thing to do so.

I'm not very sure.

Don't worry, the following sentence will have the answer. The previous statement is true.

In Desperate Attempt

It has been a couple of times, or maybe a lot more, that I have set myself in front of the computer, and tried to put in an entry - as evidently so, none were successful. I have been through this phase quite a lot and the reason being is still the same - why bother?

I have managed to put in 217,532 words since this blog was created. I have spent approximately 2,049 hours on putting up those words, including research and multiple drafts. Although the numbers mentioned was never actually proven, it does not change the following - that I do think I have written quite a lot.

Relatively, to many of other amateur writers, this is pretty much nothing really.

It's not about the quantity, or at least, alone.

Mine is not very quality either - and that may be the issue. Quality is when words manage to influence lives. How to know when our product is of high quality? The number of lives influenced determines the quality of the words. Hence, quantity does matter.

What I'm trying to say here is that it doesn't matter how frequent I put up an entry here. It's about the quality. However, since I've been very quiet for the past 3 years, I'm losing audiences and hence, there's no point of having quality if there's no one to appreciate it.

The number of this blog visitors has declined an average 23% a month for the past 38 months. Why? Because consistency is problem. Quantity does matter.

People in general does not seek quality all the time. That part is subjective to their own perception. Productivity is key. Hardwork is a significant factor. People in general enjoy being in luxury - to have the freedom of choices.

I have no where to go here. I'm just putting up words.

And by the way, none of the numbers quoted above are justified.